GOodByE BlogSpOt!.. and.. 2009

i really dont know what to say.. but i'll try my best to make this the longest in this blog.

I'm going to start a new blog now, for its a new year and new adventures are yet to come. Mariel found a new blog site that will be real great to start in. I think there are too many memories in this blog already, i think it's time to transfer all of my thoughts to another site, hehee. Although, i'll say goodbye properly, so here it goes.

This year had been sooo different indeed. I've shed lots of laughters and tears. This is a year i know that i would never forget. It is true that life here is in such a fast pace. I can't believe that it has been a year already, although thinking through all of the things that had happened, im also in wonder on how all these adventures only happened in one year; 2009.

Right now, it is December 28 2009, 10:59 AM, three more days before the new year comes and i am here to say goodbye.

It's kind of sad saying goodbye to 2009, but i know all of the memories will still be there, i think its all stored in my heart and mind. I will always remember a lot of things, but due to laziness and a possibility of a real heartache i won't recall and go through everything that had happened this year. I'll mark each important dates in this post instead.

Feb. 27-March 1: YFL Camp ( first time as assistant team leader)

April 3-6: first time back in the philippines for WYC!

May 6-7: Trust in Jesus Camp ( one of first videos made)

June 28: :(

July 10: :( :( :( (heart break)

July 18: back to iloilo city after nine years

September 26: Youth Camp Training ( first talk for training )

October 23-25: Faithbook camp ( first time to do talk 5)

November 28: Kids Conference (first time to be Hannah Montana!)

December 5-6: Heal the World this Christmas Party in Pattaya ( first time to do 3 vids in one day) (first time fishing as a teen) ( first time lots of pics of me taken while sleeping..hehe )

December 12,13,18,19,20,25 : All Caroling days.. earned A LOT of MONEY!

This was my year, and all the "important events," there were loads more but my head is about to explode with all the details of everything, and it's hard gathering dates.. phew. Anyways, this will be my last paragraph in this blog. I'll say it over and over again it has been a great, awesome, exciting, tearful, sleepless, tiring, careless and an unforgettable year. Each and every moment of this year will be remembered and cherished. It will always be in my heart and everyone else's and i am sure of it. God has blessed me so dearly, He was there for me through everything, and i know He is really proud of my strength, especially as i get back on my own feet in each painful encounters. I love you Lord, and i am so grateful for everything you have done and for all the blessing you have showered upon me. For this blog, thank you for being my source of cyber company when all i needed was to be with myself and with my own thoughts. Now it's time

GOODBYE 2009

HELLO 2010!!

Goodbye signing out.. until 2010.. but now on tumblr.com..

loves.. mwahness.. byeness...

KimliCiouZ

Faithbook camp 2009

Like any other wonderful experiences, no words can describe what we experienced, what we felt, and how a weekend would change the lives of a young generation because of God's love.

To describe this camp:
I'll play- i have never
*felt more empowered
*i felt such love and happiness
*seen 12-year old lift their hands to praise God
*seen such a young person lead the camp
*seen that much effort in preparing the camp
*done a talk that i really felt the spirit leading me
*praised God as much as i did
*felt so much happier of having new family
*felt such love from each and every youth
*seen such a great show given by a group of boys
*seen such teamwork
*seen such love

There are more but as i said it's hard to explain in words what had happened that weekend...
all the laughs, the talks, happiness, the joy, the love of people and God.. it cant be explained because it is needed to be experienced....

An ate very close to my heart once said that this weekend will change our lives forever.. and it did.. for the better..

For the first time after this camp
- i found my true inner self
- i find myself willing to serve God forever
- my perspective in everything else changes for the better
- my relationship with God has been constant
- i understand the true meaning of friendship..

Watch out for YFL 2009

impatient

I'm here now in full envy of all the people who can professionally dance so well in such a young age. I want to improve my dancing! This is the one thing that God decided not to give me yet. I dream to be in SYTYCD, in those dance movies and dancing with the best dancers in this world (which includes KAT).. I've always been feeling like its too late and believe me there are many times that i decided to just make it a hobby but then a feeling comes. The feeling of pure passion towards something you love and you know that even if you give up on it, it wont give up on you. I'm here now, impatiently waiting for that moment. I know i have a talent, i just havent got the chance to show my all yet... ;) watch for me i'll be doing these soon...

....An everyday reminder....

Facebook has been very useful for many, many reasons.

1). It helped me keep in touch with my classmate in grade 1 and surprisingly still remember each other.

2.) It is a source for unlimited pictures of yourself.

3.) It also has very helpful application such as "god wants you to know"

- I surely don't believe that God wanted me to know this at the exact moment of each day but who know right. I believe that it is very helpful to everyone because it gives everyday advices about yourself, everyday life and also answers to everyday question. I believe that some of it should be put into our minds so that we can live in purity.

From now on, im going to start posting my everyday "God wants you to know" passage.

Monday August 24 2009

On this day of your life, Karenina, we believe God wants you to know... ... that happiness has nothing to do with pleasure. You feel pleasure when you want something and you get it. Or when you don't want something and you remove it. Pleasure is always relative. Happiness is absolute. Happiness is the understanding and acceptance of life as it is in this very moment as completely perfect, because every creation of God is perfect. The degree to which you do not accept life in all of the Divine forms is the degree to which you suffer.

I was lost.. but then you found me..

"I see your true colors shinging through, i see your true colors, that's why i love you"

-I broke down to this song not just because of its meaning but because it was played at the exact moment of my life where i all i needed were these soothing words.

For sooo long.. i lost myself in hurts, insecurities, worldy judgements, criticisms, fears, laziness, loneliness and stress. I lost my natural confidence that i stopped trying to be "unique" or "extraordinary." I gave more attention to seeing myself in the perspective of the world not by the perspective of God. For so long i felt hatred towards my own body and the mistakes i've made. Despite, the praises, i still felt insecure. I kept letting myself down, while people complimented. It sucks when you cry because of yourself, it makes you feel ashamed. It's so hard to gain back that confidence; the inner belief on yourself. The world may conspire to get what you want but its also a test of faith. Here i am now, frowning at realistic facts that make it seem like no dreams can ever come true, but the truth is it can. It may seem distant, it may seem impossible, but i believe it can happen, but i may have the belief but for some reason, i dont have the faith.

FINALLY A COMPILATION

MAN! God does move in mysterious ways. Even before summer started i really really wanted to compile all of my performances and with all of the things that had been happening, i didnt really have time to look for it. Now, that i have, im now posting 2 peformances and soon there will be more to come.

These two performances was 1. A hiphop dance that made us champions ( not really, but we won 10,000 baht ) 2. A salsa dance that we only learned for a month.. see all performances are pretty sacred even before it happens.. ENJOY!

Only in the PHILIPPINES!

Being back in the PHILIPPINES gave me an opportunity to have a closer relationship with all of my cousins.. and I thank GOD sooooo much for that.. I know one of my main reasons to go back is because of them..I LOVE YOU COUSINS..

FANEGA COUSINS






DORONILA COUSINS

My Angel in heaven filled my shattered heart with everlasting joy..

This year is different indeed.

I think that i am sane enough, in proper conscience and in my right senses to pour out a life-changing experience. Although I won't, because to me no words can explain what happened, no specific emotion can describe how i felt. The only thing i can say is that, this experience made me stronger, closer to my family and gave me stronger faith in God. These past two months that had been dreadfull to live by everyday gave me so much realizations about life and about myself. The most important thing i learned is to cherish every moment with your love ones and always find a way to make every living moment with them full of joy because life is short. When death of a loved one knocks you on the head you sit there filled with regrets. That's a feeling no one should have to feel. There should be no excuses when you want to do something because sometimes it's too late. Mommy Lyds was an example of a true Catholic, a loving mother and to me an angelic grandmother. ( She is now our angel )..

Here always mommy Lyds, trying to live up to what you have taught me.

Love you! and always will be in my heart, FOREVER!

FOOTLOOSE!

This is a performance that happened during CFC-FFL's Trust Weekend. It was really fun experiencing of full service and i have explained our whole preparation of YFL for the impersonation contest. This is the video of the YFL's performance. My first full choreography. ENJOY!...

SLEEPLESS SLEEPOVERS..

For the past month of summer we had two yfl girls sleepover and it was two nights of great fun and bonding..

The first one was in the Santos residence and on that night we had
- girl to girl bondings

-sharings

-a deeper understanding with each other

-food fest or junk fest but we had nacho salad

-movie marathon and also series marathon
-fashion showm (using our creativity)

-picture takings

-and numerous laughters

It was a fun first yfl sleepover 2009..

The second sleepover was held in the De la Fuente residence and on that night and day we had..

-a night themed with the "stick it " movie

-crunchie snacks..(cereals and popcorn)
-movie marathon

-played twister

-wore french one piece bathing suits

-endless picture takings and video shoots..

-swimming.

-and nail decorations...

It was a fun filled night and day..

here, there, everywhere...

What have i been doing for the past 12 days?

- having the "SUMMER FUN"!

GOALS TO ACCOMPLISH FOR THIS SUMMER

1. professional dance lessons! ( a step closer to SYTYCD)

2. BRATZ weekly singing, dancing practices

3. use SUPERSTAR scholarship

4. YFL service on anything

5. Learn music theory

6. play piano non-stop

7. workout ( 50kg)

8. go ice-skating

9. go to dreamworld with friends

10. GET A JOB! (earn money)

11. buy new clothes ( renovate the whole closet)

12. buy more shoes!

13. learn more grammar

14. Read more books...

more to come..

So that was my list that i made before i started my "summer summer" and during the past 12 days i had accomplished

- #8

-part of #4

-part of #11.. (bought new pants)! yehey!

-part of #5 ( i started my music theory) and its been a review for sure..

- part of #13 i have finished some books that i started before but never finished.. and i am still continuing to read some books

i have so much more to accomplish and hopefully i will finish it all!..

but there are things in that list that i know for sure i wont be able to accomplish.. with reasons such as the fact that im financially challenged. So, i guess professional dancing will have to wait for now.. but i am still stretching, dancing and dreaming to be in sytycd. The new season is going great and i hope when i enter that competition my standard as a dancer will be as high as their expectations.

There's alot that i haven't informed this blog about. There are many experiences that i have yet to share but then i think that i dont need to because experiences like these are kept close to my heart. Well, maybe in the future i'll share it but not now.

For now, i will post the latest events i have done with YFL.

be back in a bit.

a loonng, tiring week for the LORD..

It's been proven that when you want something the world conspires for you to achieve it.

I had many events and wants and do's planned for this summer because THIS YEAR IT WILL BE DIFFERENT and especially THiS SUMMER!

Summer had started and already i am busy busy busy. This blog is my only free time and the only spare time i think il have for this week. This week will be a sleepless week but we're happy to give it all for GOD. This weekend will be very powerful that is a fact and im not doubting at all. This weekend is another experience that God has given us and the great opportunity to feel his presence again. We're happy to give our all again and again.

I would be happy to load the videos of these tiring, painful and sweaty days but i dont really have a camera in handy, but when i do have time to il show them all.

I just want to have this time to make a list of all the things i want to do this summer.

GOALS TO ACCOMPLISH FOR THIS SUMMER

1. professional dance lessons! ( a step closer to SYTYCD)
2. BRATZ weekly singing, dancing practices
3. use SUPERSTAR scholarship
4. YFL service on anything
5. Learn music theory
6. play piano non-stop
7. workout ( 50kg)
8. go ice-skating
9. go to dreamworld with friends
10. GET A JOB! (earn money)
11. buy new clothes ( renovate the whole closet)
12. buy more shoes!
13. learn more grammar
14. Read more books.
.. more to come..

it always feels like it was only yesterday

Time flies, and before you know it you're already standing in a different place

Recent Events:

Tania's graduation: CONGRATULATIONS TANIA!..another sibling out of ASB! and i'm the only one left. :( but im happy too. It's a start of my own adventure to reach my hopes and dreams as i go through the last two years of my high school life..

It's my second day without my two other filipino company and it has been really quiet. I can tell that the upcoming years of my high school will be different without them and it will either be exciting or really boring. Mariel and I were already planning who we're going to sit with next year. (haha) We're also thinking of ways to entertain ourselves during the summer.

TANIA'S AFTERGRAD!

spotted: black-and-white gossip girl aftergrad party in my RESIDENCE..
(what more can you ask for but a party filled with food and people you love)

This year will sooooo be different indeed..

this blog will officially be posted with videos of my many performances. So look out for alot of videos and have fun watching them.. I will be posting and also giving you a brief information on when and where we performed them..

...it's what i wanted but not what i expected...

The year had started for exactly 23 days and 21 hours and its been heading to a great start. It was the year i had wished for and wanted. God once again had answered my prayers in preparing me to the life that i yearn for in the future; a life of a performer. Ever since the start of the year i had performed in one show with five performances and of course two of them involving what i do best which is dancing. It had been great, the performances weren't perfect but they were just right. That day was full of entertainment, and i no longer think that this year was so much more duller than the last year. All the years are pretty much the same, all the experiences in its right time. The starting of the year might be great, but inner and outer conflict had started. I have always hated the last minute events in this world but then i live by it every year. I guess part of being a performer is to sacrifice and do what you think is best. Even though, i have no choice in the matter, but i do have a choice in just making my performances right. I know that each and every experience will lead me into my dream of becoming a great performer. I have everything lined up, i just hope that God had the same plans for me too as i do for myself. To fulfill my dream i guess God wants me to fulfill what he wants me to be and prayer would lead me to his way. Everything is better and everything seems to be right, but nothing is perfect and something is always missing.

KimLiciouz