impatient

I'm here now in full envy of all the people who can professionally dance so well in such a young age. I want to improve my dancing! This is the one thing that God decided not to give me yet. I dream to be in SYTYCD, in those dance movies and dancing with the best dancers in this world (which includes KAT).. I've always been feeling like its too late and believe me there are many times that i decided to just make it a hobby but then a feeling comes. The feeling of pure passion towards something you love and you know that even if you give up on it, it wont give up on you. I'm here now, impatiently waiting for that moment. I know i have a talent, i just havent got the chance to show my all yet... ;) watch for me i'll be doing these soon...

....An everyday reminder....

Facebook has been very useful for many, many reasons.

1). It helped me keep in touch with my classmate in grade 1 and surprisingly still remember each other.

2.) It is a source for unlimited pictures of yourself.

3.) It also has very helpful application such as "god wants you to know"

- I surely don't believe that God wanted me to know this at the exact moment of each day but who know right. I believe that it is very helpful to everyone because it gives everyday advices about yourself, everyday life and also answers to everyday question. I believe that some of it should be put into our minds so that we can live in purity.

From now on, im going to start posting my everyday "God wants you to know" passage.

Monday August 24 2009

On this day of your life, Karenina, we believe God wants you to know... ... that happiness has nothing to do with pleasure. You feel pleasure when you want something and you get it. Or when you don't want something and you remove it. Pleasure is always relative. Happiness is absolute. Happiness is the understanding and acceptance of life as it is in this very moment as completely perfect, because every creation of God is perfect. The degree to which you do not accept life in all of the Divine forms is the degree to which you suffer.

I was lost.. but then you found me..

"I see your true colors shinging through, i see your true colors, that's why i love you"

-I broke down to this song not just because of its meaning but because it was played at the exact moment of my life where i all i needed were these soothing words.

For sooo long.. i lost myself in hurts, insecurities, worldy judgements, criticisms, fears, laziness, loneliness and stress. I lost my natural confidence that i stopped trying to be "unique" or "extraordinary." I gave more attention to seeing myself in the perspective of the world not by the perspective of God. For so long i felt hatred towards my own body and the mistakes i've made. Despite, the praises, i still felt insecure. I kept letting myself down, while people complimented. It sucks when you cry because of yourself, it makes you feel ashamed. It's so hard to gain back that confidence; the inner belief on yourself. The world may conspire to get what you want but its also a test of faith. Here i am now, frowning at realistic facts that make it seem like no dreams can ever come true, but the truth is it can. It may seem distant, it may seem impossible, but i believe it can happen, but i may have the belief but for some reason, i dont have the faith.

FINALLY A COMPILATION

MAN! God does move in mysterious ways. Even before summer started i really really wanted to compile all of my performances and with all of the things that had been happening, i didnt really have time to look for it. Now, that i have, im now posting 2 peformances and soon there will be more to come.

These two performances was 1. A hiphop dance that made us champions ( not really, but we won 10,000 baht ) 2. A salsa dance that we only learned for a month.. see all performances are pretty sacred even before it happens.. ENJOY!

Only in the PHILIPPINES!

Being back in the PHILIPPINES gave me an opportunity to have a closer relationship with all of my cousins.. and I thank GOD sooooo much for that.. I know one of my main reasons to go back is because of them..I LOVE YOU COUSINS..

FANEGA COUSINS






DORONILA COUSINS

My Angel in heaven filled my shattered heart with everlasting joy..

This year is different indeed.

I think that i am sane enough, in proper conscience and in my right senses to pour out a life-changing experience. Although I won't, because to me no words can explain what happened, no specific emotion can describe how i felt. The only thing i can say is that, this experience made me stronger, closer to my family and gave me stronger faith in God. These past two months that had been dreadfull to live by everyday gave me so much realizations about life and about myself. The most important thing i learned is to cherish every moment with your love ones and always find a way to make every living moment with them full of joy because life is short. When death of a loved one knocks you on the head you sit there filled with regrets. That's a feeling no one should have to feel. There should be no excuses when you want to do something because sometimes it's too late. Mommy Lyds was an example of a true Catholic, a loving mother and to me an angelic grandmother. ( She is now our angel )..

Here always mommy Lyds, trying to live up to what you have taught me.

Love you! and always will be in my heart, FOREVER!