GOodByE BlogSpOt!.. and.. 2009

i really dont know what to say.. but i'll try my best to make this the longest in this blog.

I'm going to start a new blog now, for its a new year and new adventures are yet to come. Mariel found a new blog site that will be real great to start in. I think there are too many memories in this blog already, i think it's time to transfer all of my thoughts to another site, hehee. Although, i'll say goodbye properly, so here it goes.

This year had been sooo different indeed. I've shed lots of laughters and tears. This is a year i know that i would never forget. It is true that life here is in such a fast pace. I can't believe that it has been a year already, although thinking through all of the things that had happened, im also in wonder on how all these adventures only happened in one year; 2009.

Right now, it is December 28 2009, 10:59 AM, three more days before the new year comes and i am here to say goodbye.

It's kind of sad saying goodbye to 2009, but i know all of the memories will still be there, i think its all stored in my heart and mind. I will always remember a lot of things, but due to laziness and a possibility of a real heartache i won't recall and go through everything that had happened this year. I'll mark each important dates in this post instead.

Feb. 27-March 1: YFL Camp ( first time as assistant team leader)

April 3-6: first time back in the philippines for WYC!

May 6-7: Trust in Jesus Camp ( one of first videos made)

June 28: :(

July 10: :( :( :( (heart break)

July 18: back to iloilo city after nine years

September 26: Youth Camp Training ( first talk for training )

October 23-25: Faithbook camp ( first time to do talk 5)

November 28: Kids Conference (first time to be Hannah Montana!)

December 5-6: Heal the World this Christmas Party in Pattaya ( first time to do 3 vids in one day) (first time fishing as a teen) ( first time lots of pics of me taken while sleeping..hehe )

December 12,13,18,19,20,25 : All Caroling days.. earned A LOT of MONEY!

This was my year, and all the "important events," there were loads more but my head is about to explode with all the details of everything, and it's hard gathering dates.. phew. Anyways, this will be my last paragraph in this blog. I'll say it over and over again it has been a great, awesome, exciting, tearful, sleepless, tiring, careless and an unforgettable year. Each and every moment of this year will be remembered and cherished. It will always be in my heart and everyone else's and i am sure of it. God has blessed me so dearly, He was there for me through everything, and i know He is really proud of my strength, especially as i get back on my own feet in each painful encounters. I love you Lord, and i am so grateful for everything you have done and for all the blessing you have showered upon me. For this blog, thank you for being my source of cyber company when all i needed was to be with myself and with my own thoughts. Now it's time

GOODBYE 2009

HELLO 2010!!

Goodbye signing out.. until 2010.. but now on tumblr.com..

loves.. mwahness.. byeness...

KimliCiouZ

Faithbook camp 2009

Like any other wonderful experiences, no words can describe what we experienced, what we felt, and how a weekend would change the lives of a young generation because of God's love.

To describe this camp:
I'll play- i have never
*felt more empowered
*i felt such love and happiness
*seen 12-year old lift their hands to praise God
*seen such a young person lead the camp
*seen that much effort in preparing the camp
*done a talk that i really felt the spirit leading me
*praised God as much as i did
*felt so much happier of having new family
*felt such love from each and every youth
*seen such a great show given by a group of boys
*seen such teamwork
*seen such love

There are more but as i said it's hard to explain in words what had happened that weekend...
all the laughs, the talks, happiness, the joy, the love of people and God.. it cant be explained because it is needed to be experienced....

An ate very close to my heart once said that this weekend will change our lives forever.. and it did.. for the better..

For the first time after this camp
- i found my true inner self
- i find myself willing to serve God forever
- my perspective in everything else changes for the better
- my relationship with God has been constant
- i understand the true meaning of friendship..

Watch out for YFL 2009

impatient

I'm here now in full envy of all the people who can professionally dance so well in such a young age. I want to improve my dancing! This is the one thing that God decided not to give me yet. I dream to be in SYTYCD, in those dance movies and dancing with the best dancers in this world (which includes KAT).. I've always been feeling like its too late and believe me there are many times that i decided to just make it a hobby but then a feeling comes. The feeling of pure passion towards something you love and you know that even if you give up on it, it wont give up on you. I'm here now, impatiently waiting for that moment. I know i have a talent, i just havent got the chance to show my all yet... ;) watch for me i'll be doing these soon...

....An everyday reminder....

Facebook has been very useful for many, many reasons.

1). It helped me keep in touch with my classmate in grade 1 and surprisingly still remember each other.

2.) It is a source for unlimited pictures of yourself.

3.) It also has very helpful application such as "god wants you to know"

- I surely don't believe that God wanted me to know this at the exact moment of each day but who know right. I believe that it is very helpful to everyone because it gives everyday advices about yourself, everyday life and also answers to everyday question. I believe that some of it should be put into our minds so that we can live in purity.

From now on, im going to start posting my everyday "God wants you to know" passage.

Monday August 24 2009

On this day of your life, Karenina, we believe God wants you to know... ... that happiness has nothing to do with pleasure. You feel pleasure when you want something and you get it. Or when you don't want something and you remove it. Pleasure is always relative. Happiness is absolute. Happiness is the understanding and acceptance of life as it is in this very moment as completely perfect, because every creation of God is perfect. The degree to which you do not accept life in all of the Divine forms is the degree to which you suffer.

I was lost.. but then you found me..

"I see your true colors shinging through, i see your true colors, that's why i love you"

-I broke down to this song not just because of its meaning but because it was played at the exact moment of my life where i all i needed were these soothing words.

For sooo long.. i lost myself in hurts, insecurities, worldy judgements, criticisms, fears, laziness, loneliness and stress. I lost my natural confidence that i stopped trying to be "unique" or "extraordinary." I gave more attention to seeing myself in the perspective of the world not by the perspective of God. For so long i felt hatred towards my own body and the mistakes i've made. Despite, the praises, i still felt insecure. I kept letting myself down, while people complimented. It sucks when you cry because of yourself, it makes you feel ashamed. It's so hard to gain back that confidence; the inner belief on yourself. The world may conspire to get what you want but its also a test of faith. Here i am now, frowning at realistic facts that make it seem like no dreams can ever come true, but the truth is it can. It may seem distant, it may seem impossible, but i believe it can happen, but i may have the belief but for some reason, i dont have the faith.

FINALLY A COMPILATION

MAN! God does move in mysterious ways. Even before summer started i really really wanted to compile all of my performances and with all of the things that had been happening, i didnt really have time to look for it. Now, that i have, im now posting 2 peformances and soon there will be more to come.

These two performances was 1. A hiphop dance that made us champions ( not really, but we won 10,000 baht ) 2. A salsa dance that we only learned for a month.. see all performances are pretty sacred even before it happens.. ENJOY!

Only in the PHILIPPINES!

Being back in the PHILIPPINES gave me an opportunity to have a closer relationship with all of my cousins.. and I thank GOD sooooo much for that.. I know one of my main reasons to go back is because of them..I LOVE YOU COUSINS..

FANEGA COUSINS






DORONILA COUSINS